I'm so sick and tired of being the only one who sees what is going on with my mother in law and the only one to say anything about it. I ask for help and she fumbles around with her words and makes up excuses as to why she can't help me. I was always told that help will be given to those who ask, but I shouldn't have to make my fiance ask his mother to do something for him (instead of saying that it's helping me) just to get her to watch her own grandkids for a few hours. I'm 24 years old with two kids under the age of 5 and I'm going to school (attempting to go full-time.) There's the problem... How can I go to school full-time without a little bit of help? She wanted grandkids so bad and now that she has them, she acts like she doesn't want to have anything to do with them. Or maybe she's just using them to get back at me for some unknown (to myself) reason? I have no idea what her problem is. I just wish she would straighten up sometimes and help out without the bullshit excuses, dirty looks, and snide comments. I can't be the only person in this world to stress out. Why can't she go piss off her husband or something? Sometimes I just wish karma would come around and knock her into her place.
Her latest snide remark was on her birthday. I was on the computer at her house checking out the specs on a tablet that I want so badly. It is one of those things where you can go to the page and stare at it for hours, without ever hitting the "ADD TO CART" button, you know? Because you can't afford it. LOL She starts, "You shouldn't be looking at that. You don't need any more computers. You don't get anything done anyways because you're always on your phone or computer." What am I supposed to do about school then? Do you just want me to sit at home like a blob and do absolutely nothing my entire life? My schooling is what will bring your son home from work one day. Also, how am I supposed to contact MY FAMILY that lives 150+ miles away (some even as far away as the other side of the country). That week, I went to my psychiatrist and bitched about how much I wanted to ask my mother in law what her excuse was for not getting anything done. I didn't though, I bit my tongue. Karma will come around one of these days... months... years... however long it takes. It will come around. I just have to keep biting my tongue until then to wait for the moment.
Speaking of karma... God, I just love karma. Our son was born almost 13 months ago. 5 days after our son was born, the private ownership of the Napa franchise my fiance worked for, fired my fiance because they didn't like him. In the previous months, they had also ruined the careers of several other employees who were close friends, simply because the owners were cleaning house and had no idea how to run an automotive parts business to begin with. I found out that a few weeks ago, those same private owners got the shit end of the stick from their partner, who also screwed them out of a $90 million deal through the other LLC they were in on, and were forced to sell the two Napa stores out to another Napa franchisee, Beamon & Johnson. Wow, if that isn't karma, I don't know what is. When I found out, I laughed so hard that I started crying (God knows, I almost pissed myself with laughter.)
Karma finds those who deserve it and God doesn't put on our plates any more than he knows we can handle. I guess those are just some of the lessons I have to remember over the years.
All I can say is that, I love my fiance. No matter what happens between his mother and I, it will not break us apart. Let's just hope she doesn't try to wear white on our wedding day...
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