Tired

I'm so tired of arguing over who's who or what's what and when something is going to happen or why it hasn't.  I'm so tired of guessing all of the time and wondering what the hell people are actually thinking because nobody ever truly says what they're thinking anymore.  Honestly, they're all just a bunch of posers and retards.  That's what I think.  But I've found myself doing the same thing.  Tired of conflict.  I honestly find that I don't give a rat's ass about the other person unless they are somehow close to me... yet I'm just tired of having things stirred up for no apparent reason whatsoever, other than me opening my mouth and people reacting stupid.  I walked up to my best friend, my sister, in the middle of the mall when she asked why everyone was looking at her strangely and said "because you're acting like a stuckup selfish conceded bitch."  Honestly, I was waiting for her to turn around and knock the shit out of me.  She shrugs and goes "true" I almost fell out in the floor in shock.  I love that girl to death, she's my BFF, my sister for life.  Why can't everyone else just act like that?  Why do people have to flip out over something stupid?  People call me a bitch and I say "yeah, so what?"

I AM THE REAL THING.  I'M HERE.

My counselor asked me what my strengths were the other day.  I mentioned first, being a good mom.  I love my kids.  They're super kids.  My second, was being a good shopper.  I never mentioned anything about how I speak what's on my mind because I'm starting to think that it's not such a good thing anymore.  Although I keep getting told by others that its a good trait to have.  Honesty, that's a good trait.  Similar, but not the same.  Honesty is being frugal, where speaking your mind gets your ass kicked.  You don't tell lies, but you don't tell the whole truth.  Nobody needs to know EVERYTHING is what I keep getting told by certain people.  Whatever.  You know, I honestly don't care anymore what people know or don't know because what they say or do doesn't matter to me.  I'm in a strong and steady relationship with someone I love more than anything in this world, so whatever anyone has to say or do won't matter.